Oh the life we lead...

I have spent my afternoon reading today. I am amazed at how much I've learned about the people that I love and respect so much. Reading their thoughts, and their stories has made me realize how much I miss my life as it used to be. I feel so disconnected from the people I used to be close to...

Today I ask myself if pursuing a career and a dream is truly worth the sacrifice... I hardly see my friends... I don't spend as much time in church... I do not participate as often... I feel... Alone... I miss my old life... miss being free to spend time with friends and family... I miss my family in Mexico... I miss life as it used to be...

So as I asked myself if the sacrifice was truly worth it, I realize... I've grown up... I am more responsible today than I've ever been, and I have learned to truly appreciate whatever time I can take to spend with my friends...

For the last two years, I've been disconnected from what feels like the heartbeat of my life... But I have learned... Oh, how I have learned... I have learned that my friends are those who still stand by me and with me... I have learned that I am capable of doing what I set my heart to do... I have learned that life is not always easy... and I have learned to look to God from whom I can gain strength and clarity of mind...

For my friends who feel a little abandoned... know that I truly appreciate each and every one of you, that I love you, and that I am what I am, and who I am, because of your influence in my life. To all my friends I want to say Thank You for being here... just a phone call or a text message away...

To my parents and siblings... I thank you for your support, and your love for the last two years... They have been harder than I ever thought they'd be... but you have been here for me, to offer me a hug... or a trip to Wal-Mart to clear my head... I love you soo much! I want to make you proud... and I will...

Seven months from now, I will hold in my hands the result of these past couple of years of work, tears, and late nights... I will make you proud... and you will see that your belief in me was not in vain...

Till that day comes, though... keep trusting, and loving me... keep me in your prayers... keep me in your hearts... I love you all...

Chely...