Denver Armani Jaramillo

Denver Armani Jaramillo

Denver is one of the most important people in my life... Going through old files, I found the video I made for his dedication... He has just grown more beautiful and special with time... I pray the grace and presence of God follows him everywhere he goes...

Tia loves you Nene!

I Ponder...

I sit here and ponder what life would be like if I didn't have you...

Would I be happy? Would I be here? 

Would life be worth living if you weren't here?

You gave me life, purpose, goals... Your life for mine you gave on the cross... Your daily presence makes life be sweeter... And your love for me is never ending... Your renewed mercy every morning gives me another chance to live life better... You and You alone have healed me, held me, and sustained me... 

So, pondering what life would be like without you is an exercise in futility... For how could I be me, if you weren't  Jesus?

What is life about these days?

I've been told I need to start my own blog... and the truth is I've had it for many years now, but haven't posted in more than a year. I always had the same excuses: too busy with work, school, church, to really dedicate time to it. Well, I have decided it is time to make time for it... and here it is...

What has happened in the last 15 months?

I have lived through more than I ever thought I would, that's for sure... And I have learned things about myself that I never expected... My faith has been tested, my strength as well, and my willingness to live life to the fullest.

Yes, the last 15 months have been filled of uncertainty, despair, sadness, pain, and illness. But they have also been filled with tremendous peace in the middle of the storm, laughter while in pain, and a strength I frankly didn't know I had.

I also found my relationship with Jesus again. To say I've been away from Him is kind of close to the truth... The fact is, it becomes easy to step away after time, and stay away... Once we get busy with everyday life, and work, and everything is going great, it is easy to forget about, or put off if you will, an everyday life of prayer, and communion with God.

He was so merciful, though! Even when I haven't been the most faithful of His servants, He saw it fit to bring healing, peace, and strength into my life, during the darkest of times... He was there, He has always been there... and I am beyond thankful for His grace and mercy in my life, undeserving as I was.

Prayer... the power of prayer is something I've always said is amazing... but until you've been through a time where nothing but God will get you through, you're able to truly understand the amazing power and strength that you receive through prayer... Jesus is as near as the mention of His name.

So the last 15 months have not been the easiest of times... but I got through it! And my family and friends have been amazing too! My mother never left my side during those six and a half weeks, and my father spent his evenings with me every day. My little sister sneaked in some snacks (that mom would've never allowed)... and my other sister, my best friend, Megan, who was there every treatment I went through, and is pretty much the only person in the world my mom entrusted overnight care to... Thanks Megan! And to all my family and friends who were with me, supporting me and praying for me... I'll never be able to thank you enough... Your support has meant the world to me and my family...

So these are some of my ramblings... Hopefully I'll make more sense the more practice I have at writing this blog thingie! Thanks for reading!.