The last couple of months have been some of the hardest in my life. One of my dearest friends was on the brink of death for several weeks. Another friend almost lost her unborn child. Yet another close friend of mine recently gave birth to a premature little girl named Nahomi.
As the chaos erupted inside me I realized that it has been such a long time that I have truly been on my knees praying. The daily happenings of life have had my mind wrapped around work, and school, endeavoring to find independence, that I forgot that there is ONE whom I need more than anything in the world. Then I realized that more than me, my friends needed my prayers. I realized that by being so busy trying to run away from life, life had caught up to me, and it was time for me to make a decision.
Sink or swim...
Pray or complain...
Remember or forget...
Say I love you... or be quiet...
I tried so hard... many times I wished someone could see inside my mind and help me... I stood before the altar trying to be the same person that had burdens, visions, dreams... life caught up to me and I wasn't ready... Instead of asking for help, I complained... Instead of praying, I lost myself in work and school...
Life has a funny way of showing us what we need to do... While my friends' health was in danger I tried to help... all I heard back was "pray for her" "pray for them"
Sunday, February 10, 2008
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